best conversation ever

Him: "what do you do?"
Me: "I'm a condom tester for rough rider..."
Me: "what do you do?"
him: "I'm a psychological gynocologist"
Me: "Oh so you talk to women's pussies and make them feel better?"
him: "no they talk to me and make ME feel better"

seriously... we were both in stitches....

Internet Dating

so ya, I guess I'm feeling inspired today cause I have something else to go on about.... Internet Dating...

So, I know those that frown, those that belittle, those that are neutral and those that enjoy... and now, for your reading pleasure I will tell you my own take on internet dating...

YES I have done it... and yes I do enjoy it. I am actually a Plentyoffish.com kinda girl.. but that's cause I'm CHEAP... well you know what I mean... I'm not cheap if I have money... but cause I don't especially not to meet guys... POF is where its at...

Now, being a free-dating-site-kinda-gal you have more than your fair share of weirdos... but as far as I can tell.. no more than lavalife or campuskiss or any of those other dating sites... plus, at least this way you don't spend your hard earned cash talking to losers right???

So, yes although sometimes I wonder if I have stooped to an all time low with the internet dating thing, I feel as though there is no difference between finding/meeting someone in person and meeting them on line...


THE DEBATE:

now much of the debate comes from the fact that it is easier for people to lie... to not be who they claim to be.. to put up different pictures... TRUE, but seriously, do you honestly think that people who do this wouldn't do it to your face too? I mean if you met them on the street, or even in church group or something.. anything.. do you not think that maybe they would lie about somethings... so what you get to see their face... so the pic isn't a fake...but can you honestly claim that its safer to meet someone at one of those 30 second dating things... (that I know nothing about)???

there are a few things though about internet dating that are challenges...

1. its easier to really like someone... and then be disappointed when you meet them and there's no chemistry.
2. Its easier to be TOO honest about your life with a complete stranger... hahaha that's a funny one considering I tell complete strangers about my life on here:P
3. Indeed there is perhaps more inclination to lie if you don't meet the person.

HENCE... don't get too close to someone before you meet them... cause there is nothing more awkward than talking to someone about dating them, only to meet them and not think they are attractive...

Oh my biggest pet peeve with internet dating.. when people are offended that you don't write back if you don't think they are attractive... COME ON ladies and gentleman... I don't know about you.. but you do know about me.. and sex is VERY VERY IMPORTANT.. SO.... if I see your picture and I think there is no way in hell that I am going to sleep with you... that's it... there's no room for debate... SORRY!!!

so ya... i think I've said what I want to say about that!

the expensive side of being single

Last night... on my way out to the bar I had a great idea to write a rant about how expensive it is to be single... so here it is...

I don't know about any of you, but I remember living in a one bedroom apartment, beautiful, with all my things, a backyard, trees, in a great neighborhood... the internet.. the fastest you could get... cable TV and all the channels you could want...a car... driving anywhere...food in the refrigerator...and even special meals...a bottle of wine around...

going out for dinner a couple of days a week...

WHEN I WAS IN A COUPLE...

all of these things were possible cause we split it right down the middle... it was like you were living on your own...cause you can still walk around nekkid... get up when you wanted to.. not worry about anyone knowing your business....cause the person you were living with was all of your business...etc.

Now that I am single I find that the economy laughs at my singlehood... if you want to live on your own, the rent is ALL yours, the CABLE is all yours, the PHONE, the FOOD, the CAR, the GAS, the MOVIES the EVERYTHING...

its as though the world is saying... hahaha you are single and we are going to fuck you over until you find someone new to live with!

the generation above us wonders why so many youth are moving in with their partners so soon after they get together...well if you couldn't find a decent one bedroom for under a thousand dollars in the city... and your boyfriend/girlfriend was spending every waking minute at your place, what would you do???

Now the food... I don't know about you, but I have found that feeding one more mouth (the going from one to two people) costs pennies, but when you have to buy EVERYTHING on your own... you stick to Kraft dinner, eggs, bread and Tuna... anything that's quick, easy and cheap.

SO... for me, I have a bachelor apartment with NO internet, NO cable NO CAR, and very little in the way of food....

tangent: I just invested in 20$ bunny ears for the TV... I went to the Canadian Tire and the guy didn't know what I was talking about.... clearly I am regressing terribly as I grow older... cause NO ONE uses an antenna anymore... so... now that i have some for m of entertainment I'm not sooo bored at home.. the best thing though??? CBC and CTV have the comments for blind people.... hahaha, so I don't even get normal stations.. cause they don't broadcast them via antenna anymore.... you gotta love that!!!(a little embarrassing, but funny none-the-less)

back to the expensive part of life... so ya, I'm living this sort of nomad existence, ... then to top it all off, everything that one uses to get out of being single... the internet, bars, singles nights.... etc ALL COST MONEY... so then what???

I swear no wonder people get married or stay in school forever... cause its too damn expensive to be single!!!

ya there you go....

When you got one no one cares...

So, this blog is about the trials of my life.. and right now that means in the big city known to all as Toronto.

Well... since moving here six months ago I have endured my share of bad apartments, bad money, bad jobs, bad men and bad luck in general.

What bothers me the most is that I have found when I didn't have a degree everyone cared.. and now that I do, no one cares. I have been working in the service industry for the past three years.. and have continued this trend in Toronto. Although most people stay in it cause they make serious cash.. I have cause I haven't been able to find anything else.. how retarded is that???

Anyone else just out of university experiencing this frustration?

as for the apartments... well I've moved 3 times in the past six months and I'm on to my fourth, without parents that want to fork up a considerable amount of money for first and last months rent... or for anything for that matter, I find myself jumping from one sublet to the next.... hoping to find something permanent... doesn't help that my bubbly personality got my ass fired at the end of the summer:P Stupid cliques... but that's a whole other topic...

So my new place... quaint... small, downtown... perfect for the nightlife... but the nightlife requires some sort of monetary amount to sustain.. and although I've had my share... going out is so expensive that sometimes I find myself bored at home.. alone....

the apartment is freezing, the landlords promised they'd put a window in and haven't.. the breaker goes if you have 1 thing plugged in plus one element on the stove turned on... and oh wait.. here it comes... there's a massage parlor upstairs which makes for very interesting nights... such as the one where I come out of my apartment at 2am to find a older gentleman(which I'm sure he would prefer to be called) wondering if Ï was open for business" ha... I should...Make a little extra cash on the side...

anyways..There'ss plumbing problems and I have no internet or cable cause I don't have the money to put the deposit down....

IS this really how other people live???

so ya... I've been trying to find another job.... but it seems I either over qualified or under qualified.. and that, ladies and gentleman is a joke!

there's my rant for today.

Epiphany

So, just to change it up a little... and not write about sex.. cause well there is a little more to me than that.. SURPRISE!

Anyways, my two best friends came home this weekend (they are both living out west). We had a good chat, spent some time together etc. I also had a good time with my family, and my other best friend... so anyways, in the midst of all of this and talking about things I had an epiphany. Essentially a quote I saw at the beginning of the weekend sums it up.

"Life is not about finding oneself, its about creating oneself."

I realized I've been spending way too much time being sad that the life I had is over.

SOOOOO... here's what happened... realized that I REALLY REALLY REALLY want to stop being so fucking nice to the people in my life that treat me like crap... and take me for granted (the ex). 2. I don't need stability I need to be happy, so I'm thinking about moving out west and working at a ski resort for the winter... that way I'm in the mountains... and there are alot of hotties there.. so lots of stories:P

And... well... i need to move forward and create myself.

so... I'm feeling pretty damn great about myself right now.

Intuition

So.... My Tuesday night... let me tell you.

All summer, off and on I have been going to this drum and Base night that my friends hold. Getting back into the scene, its pretty quiet, but 3$ drinks and listening to good music can never go wrong. So three weeks ago I saw this guy checking me out... pretty good looking and well I'll be honest I had seen him a few times over the summer and had thought the same thing.

Well he sorta asked to be introduced to me three weeks ago, and noticing his interest I sorta took it into my own hands to make the evening happen.

By the end of the night... to make a long story short I ended up at his house... had amazing sex all night long and then left in the morning.

Now this guy was super nice, super great and a super great lay. I left him my phone number, but figured he wouldn't call and that was cool with me.

So... the next week I end up back at my regular place.. and he's there... again I was bold and asked if we were planing on hanging out again later on... he was, I was.. so it happened. Not as hot as the first night... but deffinately no regrets.

SO... this leads me to last night. I wanted to get laid sooooo badly. So.I went to the club and chilled with the boys... I just figured that what had happened for the past two weeks would happen again.

So I got there and dude was there... we laughed we chilled, pretty low key flirting cause we didn't want anyone else to know... and then I got this weird thought... the night is not going to happen...he's back with his girlfriend.....

not that he said or did ANYTHING that would make me think that anything was different. I asked if we were getting together later and he said he didn't think so.

I asked why
he said cause he had to wake up early... well we all know this is BULLSHIT, I mean come on, if you want to get laid... you'll stay up ALL night.

So I told him to be straight with me.

Turns out what I had been thinking was true, him and his ex had gotten back together. It was the creepiest feeling ever...

My intuition freaks me out.

But besides that... how is it that I find this guy to have great sex with.. and would do it ALL the time, if possible, and three weeks after we meet he can't anymore... it sucks ass

date the bad lays, and the good lays get away :(

Anyways, that's my piece this week.
needless to say I went home, horny, drunk and all by myself... i don't know if I like this city anymore.

the 24 year old tantrum!

So... I met this guy, super nice had a lot in common... and he took me out on a date... a REAL LIVE DATE with wine and everything... we had a great time... and then at the end of the night we sat outside my place and chatted... the more we chatted the more restless he got... he placed his hand on my leg... and slowly the hand drifted up my skirt.

Now... I don't know about anyone else REALLY, but isn't there some fucking unspoken rule that says you should kiss a girl before you try to fuck her??? This is what I don't get... anyways, needless to say I pushed his hand away... made a joke.. and then finally said."fuck aren't you going to kiss me first or something?"

Now I didn't want to sleep with this guy...
you may ask why...

I liked him...

Thats the thing with me.. usually, if I meet a guy and like him...I won't sleep with him right away cause we all know where those relationships end:P they start at sex and end at sex and never go anywhere else:P

So... to make a long story short he essentially wanted to fuck me... in his car... or at least oral something or other and I wasn't up for it.... he proceeded to act like a broken child who didn't get his way... almost trying to reverse psych me into doing this...

I'm too fucking thoughtful, so while I'm saying no I am apologizing.. what's up with that???

Anyways his "well I can't be around you cause you are turning me on too much" was short lived on me... and we parted ways with him sulking in the car...

Nice fucking car though... but fuck, if you want to fuck me... be a man.. I need a man... not some fucking spoiled child.

The dilemma

So, the problem with having a blog that you divulge details about your life... and your sex life in particular is that it tends to conflict with the interests of the men you sleep with... or anyone in your life for that matter that could possibly be offended by the details of a sexual encounter with them....so needless to say I have been facing a serious dilemma over the past few months, considering I have some great stories... but then should I say them for risk of offending some people??

for instance.. the dilemma of sleeping with one of your best friend's brother's???

so ya... I've been getting laid, but how to divulge such information without offending anyone is awkward....