I came on here because I wanted to write what was going on for me, and then I read my last post, and remembered what it was about, and am moved at my own growth and am left wondering what I wanted to write in the first place.
So much has happened in the past few weeks... I am making peace with so many parts of my life.. and making peace with myself... with my fears, my frustrations, and in so doing I am becoming more aware of the light inside of me.. and my purpose... who I was born to be.
I am scared of failing.. all the time... and yet, finally I have the strength to look past that fear and start to move towards who I know myself to be. Strong, Loving, Kind, Intelligent, Successful, HEALTHY.
I've decided to go back to school... to pursue the gifts that I was given at birth... and was scared to go after.. to incorporate all that my mother passed on to me.. all that I hold in my heart, my love, my knowledge and my dedication.. I am embracing my path in life and its thrilling.
As for men... things have been starting to shift for me... slowly. I still have my moments where I seek the attention of men to cover up something else in my heart. But I am getting better at my choices, and forgiving myself for my shortcomings.
I'm also learning to let the drama go.... also very slowly. When drama shows up in my life I am quicker to diffuse the upset in my heart and not bombard those around me with my own angst. Learning how to not take things so seriously and personally. I'm still growing!
Life is such an interesting series of events.. all that got me to this place had to happen.. all the sads, all the happys... all the failures and all the successes... all the moments where I wished it was different.. have all pushed me forward through time and space to this moment. And although there are a few things that I would like changed, I finally understand that the struggles create space to learn, to grow and shift the path of life.
I am surrounded by so much love... its amazing.
